Father, sometimes when things seem to be falling apart, people blame outward influences, and others blame themselves.
I’m the latter. You know I self-examine, self-deprecate. I blame myself. Neither is right or healthy, but you know my mind won’t stop.
Today is one of those days. So, I’m trying to obey you right now. I’m taking time to write it down, like David did in the Psalms.
I need to let go of these musing, blow them into the wind like dandelion. Let you carry them away, blow the condemnation into the wind so I can be free. I have to let go of these insults, the fear, the worry and the confusion.
I don’t know a better way to let go of my insecurity and anxiety except to give it you my Father. You have big ears for my many tears and sorrows.
Listen to me my King, I am desperate for love in my loneliness. I always need you. This longing will never diminish or decrease.
But I feel so far away from you right now. You are in heaven and I am…here. Sometimes I just want your hug, to feel your arms hold me. This isn’t my home.
But, you are my home, my healer, my helper, my hero.
You are Everything, so I give you my helpless heart that leads me astray and my mind that meddles with my peace. Lead me again into your light, to the truth that I have a place where I belong.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I choose to change the compass of my heart in your direction so I can find my way.
Lead me and give me peace. Your daughter, Sharie