Genesis 15:1, “Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward.”
Have you ever felt like God promised you one thing, but He seems to have forgotten? He’s answering all the small prayers, but it’s that big one you’re the most worried about.
Then you feel guilty to be so picky. Who are you to choose what God should do and when He should do it?
Sometimes I get frustrated with my heart and emotions. If they could only be regulated to God’s timeline, my desires and dreams wouldn’t exasperate me while I’m waiting for God to fulfill a promise.
There is a man in the Bible who constantly wondered if God would fulfill His promise. His name is Abram. In Genesis 14-15, Abram’s brother and family are kidnapped and taken off as slaves. Of coarse Abram is upset. So, he gathers an army to rescue them and brings everyone and everything back successfully.
After the victory, Abram thanks God for his success. God responds to him, “Do not be afraid, Abram, I am your shield, your very great reward.” (Gen 15:1).
You would think Abram would have been encouraged standing there; a mighty warrior blessed by God. But, the word reward triggered his deep doubt. He had won a great battle, but his heart was left stinging with doubt and rejection. If God is his reward, why isn’t he being rewarded with a son?
In this moment of inner turmoil, God assures Abram he hasn’t forgotten the promise. He assures him he will have more offspring than the stars in the sky. Abram decides to believe again and God’s credits it to him as a righteous deed. In his heart Abram didn’t want to believe. He wanted to be hurt and blame God, but he chose to believe.
We’ve all been here, in this moment wondering, “But God, You promised me …. Why are you not answering? Will you do this? How and when, or why have you not already?” When we feel this way, we have to remember two things:
1. We cannot give into fear. We will have tears of doubt, but we have to give them to God.
2. We have know who we believe not what. The promise is not our reward, the presence of God in our lives is.
God, I pray we would trust you when we don’t know how or why we should. Remind us that if we can trust you with our souls, we can trust you with anything else.